2020 – Was looking forward to it. My 60th birthday. Promised myself I do a year backed with travelling.
Beginning of year 2020, my sister insisted we go together. We never did that. We got so excited. We checked destinations, accommodation, locations to go, oh didn’t we? We got so wrapped up. Everything booked, started on checking what clothes to wear.
There was this virus cropping up but it was so far away ….in China. Well we weren’t going that far for our trip together. We continued to plan up to minute details, do we take an umbrella? Started downloading apps, searching for events. Oh it was so fantastic. I even gave our trip a name “Celebrating 60th birthday of sisterhood”.
The virus crept to Italy but we were going to Spain. Let’s check, well couple in Madrid. Ok we were going to North West of Spain. Kept looking for spreading of the virus. Only a couple cropped up – all is ok. Still we go. Bought masks just in case.
Then in one weekend it multiplied not only in Italy, Spain but all through Europe. Oh dear, truth faced us with deaths and the danger of the virus. We still were hopeful, oh it is a holiday we need to do. But the numbers kept multiplying and we realised we had to cancel on our dream. And we just cancelled on time, got our money back. Alas, many others still are fighting for their money back.
As the Maltese started being repatriated the virus crept to Malta too. Countries became isolated, streets emptied and social distancing became the top buzz word. This is such a weird time we are living, hugs have become weapons. Older persons are not allowed to see their families. Cities around the world completely empty. So strange seeing Valletta empty!
Just looking at films with people splashing in the same pool together has become history in just a few months. It is amazing specially knowing that it will take years to bring up confidence in many people. It is true though that there are many too who overlook the danger or still refuse to get crushed.
Well whatever the mentality, wealth, power or popularity, old or young, nationality, the virus creeps. It can be unknown to the person or it may kill. It is horrible to see figures rising each. For me, my eye catches the death as I only know how much grief hurts specially wondering if there are mums suffering like me because of this creepy virus.
Many are concerned with the financial crisis and pushing to normalise. Well this is a killer but we all do need to be pushed into getting to some kind of normal.
I do find it comfortable to work at home. I can focus more as this has slipped away from when I lost Ian. At work there are so many distractions that it is so difficult to concentrate. Here at home it is easy as I can be myself. Yes, myself getting close to myself this brings out the pain more but it is me as I am. What hurts more is that it has been months since I saw my daughter. Oh how much I wish to hug my dearest daughter again 🙁
